Lately I’ve been thinking way too much. Some things in my life are totally out of control.

Sailor’s lymphoma,  which by the way as of today is no longer in partial remission, but out of control. At least out of mine. Since I don’t believe in “divine intervention,” I guess we are on our own.

The sale of our house in Colorado. Trust me; these people looking at our house don’t have clue what real houses or real life looks like. “Dated” ( read 10 yrs) is what we are hearing. Hmm… have we come forward as a society like Las Vegas that needs to raze everything in sight in order to keep up with what the current fad is? What has happened to timeless classic? Have we become a cookie-cutter society? So sad.

What about you, aka “my readers?” I get a few comments now and then. I’m not even sure people are reading and getting anything out of anything I write. I have always hated those people that whine about nobody commenting on their blogs. I don’t want to become one of them. I started this blog to keep friends and family in touch with what was happening in our lives. I guess I got greedy when a few people started to read. I would love to have more interaction with people reading my blog, but again, this has not happened and is out of my control.

Frankly, when I read other people’s blogs and they have over 10 comments I don’t feel the need to add mine in. In my mind they already have enough people commenting that the don’t need my simple opinion.

I need to take control over the things in my life that I CAN control. I’ve not yet decided what those things are exactly, but I need to work on a list and move forward. I’ve even thought of restricting my blog to family and friends only. Rick thinks I am nuts regarding this. I’ve had so many comments left by

spammers that you never get to see because of my enabling comment moderation it’s disgusting. It’s very discouraging when the number of comments that I have to approve are junk vs. viable.

Sorry to burden you all (whoever you are!) with this tonight but I am feeling very low. Maybe tomorrow will be different. It hasn’t been a good day.

A note: Thank you to all of you that either comment on the blog or let me know you’re reading by emailing me. I appreciate you all!